i know im thinking this way because it’s almost 3am and no one has very good thoughts at 3am
but i got to thinking about some people in my life and some people that i know and how these people are taking advantage or trying to take advantage of me because of my inability to say no and my need to want to help or serve people and i’m just sad. sad and frustrated.
i think im going to stop doing commissions
or at least, charge more for my drawings and designs.
i’ve had too many people try and take advantage of me and my kindness, my patience and my time. and it’s becoming more of a burden than something fun and exciting. which is sad to admit, but when you work really hard on something in the few hours you actually have off of your day job, and that person tells you to make more last minute changes, charging my flat rate starts to make me feel cheap.
because suddenly a job that should have only taken me a few hours has taken me weeks, and something that i should realistically be earning at least $500 on is getting me only $100.
im going to have to rethink some things about how valuable i consider my time to be and re-evaluate my own business plans. adulthood, woof.
ok so im listening to another podcast featuring gerard way (shocker) and he was talking about how the last mcr record that never got made was supposed to be about this support group of parents who lost their children and so they make up this story of their kids being lost in the woods fighting off this witch and he was gonna call it “the paper kingdom” and i just got so many visual ideas and oh my gOD i hope he turns that into a comic one day
basically gerard way is my favourite human being on this planet and hesitant alien is amazing and he is amazing and all i want to do is thank him profusely and have him recognize it oH WAIT HE ALREADY DID
Gerard Way on My Chemical Romance & His Solo Album (x)
‘Hesitant Alien' Zine - Gerard Arthur Way
'I'll leave you with this -
When the choirboy sings -
When the blood test stings -
And when the mothership rings -